Release Dis-ease

Journal Entry: Friday August 9 2024, 1:27pm

The day of the body painting workshop. Sold a lot of tickets - more than the last one.

How are you feeling - facilitating what would be your first “healing” event? 

This rewiring work has not been easy. There’s been so much resistance. A stubborn over-gripping on the things that have become a part of my identity.

The “sick kid”, being stubborn, selfish, not deserving of money, love and compassion - feeling like a burden. Those are things someone or something has told us along the way.

Now it’s time to release these beliefs.

I release:

• Procrastination

• Fear of success

• Believing I’m selfish and unloveable

Does this feel unsafe to achieve that dream life?

Health, success, freedom.

It feels like the unknown. 

Then what? Will I hold myself to a higher standard, will people expect more of me?

If I’m healthy am I no longer “special”?

No longer the girl with the disabilities who won the race,

Or the girl with traumas who turned out great - all things considered.

If you get vibrant health, strong lungs, travel freedom, a successful business, experiences upon experiences, money- then what?

Will you still suffer?

Will you still receive love and sympathy?

Will you still be relatable?

Or will you be scorned?

Become a moving target?

Can you let yourself be at peace? 

. . . 

Intentions for tonight:

I’m guiding people on their own self-love journey. And to start we need to take an inventory of what’s there. 

There’s misalignment in some areas - and areas that are dormant and need to be activated.

Can you acknowledge your power?

Can you be proud of yourself for even showing up?

For taking the steps to be here. 

It doesn’t matter that you fell down or “slipped up” yesterday - or had a bad day, or beat yourself up for all that.

You are here, now.

Thank yourself for it.