Fuck YES Energy
I’ve reached the stage of my life where if it’s not a “fuck yes” it’s a no. The very first layer of this painting is a piece called “The Climb” I had painted it back in high school, writing a something about enjoying the journey—our feats and defeats shaping who we are today.
In 2023 I was in a transitional stage in my life. I was entering a massive identity shift. I felt like a todler again, seeing the world with new eyes and being called to step into an energy that felt more “ME”—purposeful, colourful, creative. I was on the cusp of quitting my full time job and living a double life co-founding a community art space in the city. Straddling the two worlds was pushing me near my breaking point.
“Fuck it” became my mantra for that year. I painted this on top of my old artwork as an act of pure catharsis. Writing a new narrative with bolder conviction. Stepping into a life as my “true self”. Whoever that ‘Self’ was, I was about to find out.
Two months later I quit my full time job. I said yes to nearly everything—experimenting and tasting the world with new senses. Because fuck it, why not. I made a lot of reckless decisions, I flew close to the sun and nearly burned out, I hardly set any boundaries, I hurt some people in the process, I hurt myself in the process. By the end of the year I learned a lot, but I also felt depleted and lost. “What the hell am I even doing anymore?” I asked myself.
Fast forward through almost two years of searching for that answer. Travelling, taking courses, creating, doing some really uncomfortable rewiring of my ego and letting go of my known worldviews. The funny thing is, the answer to the question of “who am I?” isn’t found by gaining new characteristics but rather is about paring down. Chiseling the excess until you’ve landed back at the core. Your true essence.
Since I started rekindling to relationship with my true essence, life started to become clearer. My values, what I needed to feel safe, free, nourished, what my true expression looked like—the answers to those questions started to flow more easily.
So my mantra was no longer “fuck it”. My energy is a precious resource and I’m not meant to easily pour it out to anyone or anything. So I connected with my “fuck YES”. Life tasks and duties of adulthood aside—if it’s not a “fuck yes” then it’s a no. Going to that event, spending an evening with that person, that gig, etc.
Remember, everything is an energy exchange. You can logic your way into being in any situation, but I really implore you to connect with your “Fuck yes”. This is the guiding energy of your gut and heart.
This guiding energy is love. It’s your intuition telling you if something is in alignment with your soul’s essence or not. When you’re met with a choice—whether it’s saying yes to a person, pursuing something, leaving something behind— cross-check it with this feeling of expansiveness, freedom, peace, bliss.
This is the feeling of your radiant TRUTH.
This is what your life is meant to feel like. In every part of your being.
FUCK YES.
