I am the rage that never was allowed

Venus’ is the beautiful flower who also devours. With eyes hollow like the abyss.

The first layer of this piece “I’m OK” was created in 2023 when I was feeling very...not ok. It was written with an evident energy of crisis, so the declaration of “I’m ok” was clearly a facetious one.

Three years later in 2026 I decided to give this piece a facelift. So ‘Venus’ was born. The only energy I connected to while starting this piece was the phrase “I am the rage that was never allowed to be named”, and the rest of the imagery unconsciously flowed out.

I’ve entered the part of my healing journey where the festering wound that is the rage within me is asking that it be tended to.

To be seen, heard, moved, and expressed. No longer suppressed under the guise of being ok. No longer kept under the facade of being strong, civilized, nice, rational and being ABOVE feeling the emotion of rage. I’ve been badly hurt and mistreated in various parts of my life and all these years I never allowed myself to show anger. Feeling it to be an ugly, weak, and embarrassing emotion.

And now here she is. Not necessarily unleashed on anyone or anything, but rather witnessed and alchemized. Transmuted using art, martial arts, and sensual dance.

A movement of fire and pain.
A reclamation of power.